I felt better last night. a sense of calmness in the body and low inflammation. Three possible causes:

1) the weather has improved
2) I ate pizza and drank cola. (by eating/drinking the things my body craves, maybe it calms down)
3) using Licorice root.

not sure which one it is. we need time to confirm.

we should try to eat the food we like and see what happens. but stay away from coffee/dairy and sugar.

10 day without coffee!!! no coffee no matter what. drink coke if you have to.

 

weather is fantastic ... so I am feeling better because of it, I think.

breakfast - rice porridge, and something made out of a kind of cabbage (this could be  problem)

lunch - one orange, eaten first, then rice noodle and beef soup. and some basil leaves.

feeling okay so far.

the night before also tried the Gorse flower solution to combat hopelessness. not sure how well it worked.

but today my brain does seem to work. wanting to do things. and things are flowing better in the body. is it purely because of the weather or something else?

I want to focus on not eating Sulfur containing food and see what happens.

7th day without coffee (let's keep going)

also started breathing exercise before meal. only 5 minutes so this is doable. 

Orange is probably bad for you. Gas right after during nap.

Let's change diet and get rid of sulfur in our diet.

1) only eat two vegetables - celery and carrots
2) eat steak if you want
3) eat cod
4) rice

possible bone broth, but not sure.

morning just porridge.

let's do 30 days

6th day without Coffee and Gluten

again, not in a good position to blog.

feeling okay today, reasonably well, and rested.

food is beef bone broth, and rice noodle, and chinese veggie and cod.

5th day without Coffee and Gluten

 The new angle is sulfur. Let's research sulfur food and see if that's the cause.

remember - coconut milk could be the issue two days ago and that has a lot of sulfur I think.

don't have much to say today, too tired and depressed.

neck/back problem continue to be a real issue. how do I solve them? who do I need to go see?

4th day without Coffee (had a little gluten for lunch)

woke up late today due to the sleeping pill. seems to be sleeping well, that's a good thing.

Breakfast - soup from yesterday, though that may not sit very well with me.

Lunch - soup from yesterday.

Dinner - cabbage + beef + rice

weather is reasonable.

started to make bone soup for possible Pho.

Did go for chiro adjustment today. It made things better, but as usual, no real impact.

Hip/leg etc are feeling worse.

Third Day without Coffee or Gluten

Note from someone inspirational (Ruth):

Note to self on this Monday morning.
NOTHING is going to stand in MY way. Nothing can touch me. I've been to hell and back on more than enough occasions to know that I am MORE than ANY situation! Everything I want and need is right here, right now, inside me. It's time that I raise the efffing bar!!! I'm going for it all.
 

Just an okay day today. Gloomy/rainy weather. the sleeping pills last night did make me sleep well, which is really needed. Not sure how much LDN is working, or not working. But I am taking it regardless.

Morning TaiChi went really well. Probably the best so far. Very in the present. I am glad for it.

Breakfast: black rice with maple syrup. pretty nice.

Lunch: home made squash soup with saffron and cod. Tastes great.

Afternoon snack: one apple.

Dinner: Pho. It is Sunday and I have not been out for a while thought this is a good change.

2nd Day no Coffee and Gluten

Still not much energy. Still lots of issues with ligament etc. Still feeling sad though a little better.

I think sleeping well last night helped a lot, with everything.

I want to figure out how to help mitochondria with more energy. This is very important. Need to do more research.

My ATP production must be really really low. Need to check the result before.  

horrible night last night. feels the entire body was under attack. thought I was going to die.

did start taking LDN again.

mentally feeling really down. it just seems that things are getting worse and worse every day. I fear this will eventually kill me.

this could be due to the coffee drinking of the other day.

MUST STAY AWAY FROM COFFEE AT ALL COST.

what to do now? feeling hopeless. ...

help me God, if you are up there. I am out of strength and ideas.

This is Day 1 without Coffee, let's see how long we can last.

Energy level is low. Probably due to weather being gloomy. Feeling down as well. However, a little inspired from reading "The Wahls Protocol", in which the author urges reader to start a dairy to detail his journey. Hence this. I will try to write something every day.

Life is pretty difficult, I must say. Dealing with a chronic disease like mine is not easy. It's damn hard. Things do seem rather hopeless at times. And no one understands.

But may, this journal will.

We shall see.

Let's just write and see what happens. As God is my witness, I will fight till the very end.